Trigger Happy

it’s that time of the year again! sure flies…as per Gin-chan from Gintama, its moving as fast as a Formula One race car. by the time we realised it, it’s that time of the year again. 

good things, bad things, unexpected things, unimaginable things..some have happened, some i probably didn’t even realised occured, some patiently waiting to pounce on unsuspecting me, all these made up another year in my life. 

as with most of the 27 plus heading 28 years of my life, i felt that i have not been doing that great, not up to what i should be more capable of.  so it is that time of the year again, where i resolve to make improvements to my life, the overall quality of my life.  

i have been putting off a lot of things that i have been meaning to try out or do, always by saying i have no time. and with no time, time has passed yet again. it is really a very sad way to live life. thus with that said, i with greater determination this year, am gonna forge ahead and go into the beyond! 

i wish to everyone , a good year ahead! and if it doesn’t happen, then make it happen .

p.s.: i will really get to revamping this ugly piece of crap for 2009.

No Time! NO TIME!! NO TIME!!!!

aren’t those the words we often hear or use.  usually used as excuses but darn good ones to be used. until you realised, it’s not that you have no time. it’s just that it was utilised properly. by then it’s too late. time waits for no one.

i’m amongst those guilty of this crime. i always use it as a cover for my lazy attitude. i use it when i don’t want to go out and exercise. i use it when i don’t want to go meet people(that for reasons only known to me) that i don’t feel like meeting. i use it for a whole load of other occasions, just because, it’s a darn good reason to be used.

well, i’m trying to break this habit. and damn, it’s hard to break. can someone teach me how to break a habit that’s been molded for more than 10, maybe 20 years?

i do not usually like to link up other people’s post but this is a good read.

http://www.lifehack.org/articles/communication/four-rules-to-understand-what-makes-people-tick.html

this is an excerpts from the article which i agree with the most;

Rule Two: People are Motivated by Selfish Altruism

To say all behavior is strictly selfish would be misleading. It fails to account for acts of charity, ethics and why people don’t just cheat, swindle and lie all the time. Selfish altruism is a broader category that covers why people do nice things as a way to get what they want.

By studying primates, researchers noticed four main categories of selfish altruism. I believe they are the same categories we use, even if slightly more sophisticated:
Dominance – Some primates will give help as a way of asserting dominance in the group. It is as if they are saying, “Look at how powerful I am that I can give some of my resources to help you.”
Reciprocity – You scratch my back, I’ll scratch yours. The idea is that I do a favor for you with the assumption it will be returned one day. If the cost to me is less than the benefit towards you, I might help you even if I can’t predict an immediate payback.
Trade – If we both have something the other person wants, we have a reason to interact. While reciprocity is vague on the details of a payback, trade is direct.
Familial – It makes sense, from an evolutionary perspective, to help those who might share your genes.

By looking through this lens of selfish altruism, you can better make decisions. Viewing people as completely uncaring or selfish is incomplete. But expecting people to think of you constantly and do nice things for free is dangerous.

other than that, my dear little sis has finally moved on with her life and has gotten something which may turn out to be just oh so wonderful for her. i can’t help but feel happy for her. in the midst of all the happiness, i just can’t help poking fun of her for it. it’s just too damn bloody irresistable. my bad, kid!! :p

not all bad news though. i had an amazing time during the last weekend of july.attended my friend’s wedding in KL but, the highlight of it was the gathering i had with my friends. it has been ages since i’ve met up with them and it sure is good to meet up with them again. annie’s little girl was bloody cute. so much so that i’ve ended up calling annie and her hubby my future in laws.  but i’ll have to wait another 18-19 years for her to be of age. lol!! i really have to make it a point to hang out with my old buddies more often. it just isn’t the same at all. no wonder i enjoy their company so much. despite being out of touch for so long, it doesn’t show at all.best of all, they are all a bunch of people who aren’t hypocritical at all. they say shit right to your face. they truly are a bunch of mates for life. unlike the ball sucking friends i have over here. i don’t mean all of them are ball suckers but most are anyway. that explains why i just can’t seem to totally let go and have fun with them here.

not to mention that this hasn’t been a great week for me at all. crap cropping up at work, and not to mention my life. i’m also without my laptop, which i’ve finally gotten sent for servicing. nice timing though since it only has a month of warranty left. i’ve always thought that you should never send someone else to do a job for you, and once again, i was right on that. got a colleague to cover some work for me, lo and behold, practically nothing done. even when instructions were clear cut enough. maybe next time, i should spell out everything down to the smallest details and add in pictorials and screenshots as well. then again, god forbids that i ever send someone else to run tasks for me ever again.

the whole country may be rejoicing, almost every turd head maybe going “yay holiday tomorrow” but i sure don’t feel the mood at all. first up, i still have to work, doing totally meaningless and retarded standby which in my opinion does not need my presense at all. well, not that i have anything important on tomorrow but i’d appreciate it if i could just get my day off like almost everyone else. sorry folks at hotels and f&b outlets. i share you pain….

This may come out of nowhere to most people but I just feel the need to say something.

Sorry to hear that such a screw up happened to you. Sorry that as someone so closely related to you, I can’t be there for you right now.

I may not be the best person to give you any words of consolation or advice regarding relationships, since I myself suck at it but I do feel your pain and I understand how it feels to. Don’t be ashamed that you cried. It just proves that the relationship wasn’t a game to you, it wasn’t something that you took lightly.

Most important of all, don’t let this fucked up relationship get the better of you. You probably heard loads of this but “hey! there’s still plenty of good catches out there.” Don’t you let this fuck you up. Move on! You deserve better.

I don’t believe in cursing the person who cause you such pain but I believe Karma is a real pain in the ass.

Be strong. I am here for you far as I may be!